Elias swears my mom’s the secretary at our school. Swears on it. And so that’s always the first thing he comments on when he gets in class. Then we were all drawing on each other’s papers, and Elias draws a stegosaurus on mine and tells me I better keep it forever. I wonder what Jen, our teacher, is going to think when there is a big hole in my geometry homework where I cut out my stegosaurus and taped it to my binder…Oh well. Elias is a funny guy. He’s in a band too. Normally I’d be instantly attracted to him because of that, he plays the guitar and sings and that’s just *melt* for me, but I’m not in the mood or the mindset to fall for yet another person. Not the right time, not the right place. But class was fun, got 2 worksheets done and only have 20 problems for homework. That class was really the highlight of my day~
Knowing that the one thing in the entire world you could possibly want more than you want them, is their happiness. It’s not only having feelings for them at this point, or being attracted to them or whatever the hell you want to call it, it’s the fact that you actually care. That “caring” really…
“Sing with me, sing for the year, sing for the laughter, sing for the tears, sing with me, if it’s just for today. Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away~
Dream On, Dream On, Dream until your dreams come true.”—Dream On - Aerosmith
Nor for a while. When it hurts my head to walk, when it hurts my head to be around loud stuff (and I am every day at school), it’s not worth it for me to go. I’m not well, there’s obviously something wrong, and I’m not going to risk it and make it worse. And that’s that.