Is it bad to miss how things were before? Now that it’s over, is that just not allowed? Because I’m trying, I promise I am, it’s just…difficult. And when we talk, it’s even harder, because I want to be there to make you smile. I want to see that smile of yours and know that I put it there. I don’t know anymore. I know it’s not going to change. I’m not even saying I want it to, if it’s what you want I’ll go along with it like I’m the happiest girl in the world. It’s just hard, seeing you, and not being able to do anything to make you happy. Honestly, being in close proximity just makes me want to put my head on your chest and feel that strong heartbeat again.
I know I shouldn’t. I just really do miss the way we were.
I miss the fuck out of you. I did stupid stuff, and I shouldn’t have. Maybe I nagged too much. Maybe I was way more horrible than I thought I was. But I miss you, and I want everything to be back to normal.